After accepting where I am at in my life and after appreciating where I was and had been in order to get where i am at mentally today,I have noticed a huge change in myself.
I have for years...many many years lived my life trying to prove people that I can do things. For years I have accepted criticism from people,especially from my family. I realized in order to change my life I had to only accept how I did things. People are always going to have their own ideas and agenda about what you should do with your life,but you are in control and that's what has made me happier. I have to make my own mistakes,no matter what people say to me,what they believe,I am not them.... I have to go through my own experiences and deal with it the best way I deem suitable. I have made a lot of mistakes,and I have hurt a lot of people,but they have also made mistakes and have also hurt me. Were not perfect beings it’s just how it goes,and at this point in my life I need support,just like I support those people. I am a good person,and what I deserve I will receive,as long as I keep doing my best,and no matter how badly people will hurt me I have to remember to not take it personally,and just pray that their soul is changing,but that isn’t my life and what goes around comes around,always remember that. You don’t need vengeance,karma happens to everyone,and just because I am a good person doesn’t mean I am perfect,the world will decide if I need to be punished or not depending on the situation. We all get what we deserve,and we all never make it out alive anyways. I suppose it’s why I have chose a different life path and I am so glad I did honestly,I may have saved my life,because I needed to see with an open heart,and a mature mind. So,for all you out there who feel like the world is against you,it’s not,the world is giving you signals and signs that it’s time to change.... And through this process you become who you’re meant to be. It’s going to be hell,and it will feel like you’re going through hell,but I promise you it gets better..it truly does,stay strong minded,and no matter what happens to you,never allow it to define who you are,you’re so much more than what you see.